K: crying
A: I want you to stay. It just makes me so fr*gin mad where I'm sitting right now.
K: inaudible (crying)
A: A couple of tears won't hurt me. Sometimes I think I'm all teared out but then they fire back up again. I just don't know what to do.
K: It's like a death week. It's just wrong.
A: You know CB don't want to be around me and I told him last night how I felt about it.
K: I know then *inaudible*.
A: Jase told me, he goes, he's intimidated.
K: He was intimidated by everyone. One day he jumped out and (yelled)
A: It was his insecurity. I told him "you are crazy".
A: You know, I feel like this, I feel like why, cause I never gave up on, I mean I never gave up in this game. People said they'd be there for me and now there just, I mean, I can't do it by myself, cause even if you get on the block if you;ve got someone to back you.
K: No one will back you in here.
A: Whose gonna back you?
K: Nobody.
A: See I'm a backer cause if I get HOH I'll get out there and the person you most want to leave, I'm out there.
K: What about Drew?
A: He's scared.
K: I know he knows the right thing...
A: I've always said that it's hard to see me as an asset cause it's not worth the risk. It's a hard thing to come to grips with, it's hard for me to understand but...
K: You can't rationalize it.
A: But you know it. I mean if you see it and you know it's there...
K: You're talking to people that's not going to do it. There's no flaming way.
A: I know that Nik and Di won't even be an option. I won't even speak to them.
A: Couldn't you even play it and say like "You know she deserves more than that"...
A: Well you know what, like you stated yourself, if they think I'm the biggest threat here, don't people think about the jury. As a jury member it will be very hard to look at these people and decide who I want to win. What's my criteria on what people deserve for me to vote for. Right now it has no revelence. I don't want to sit around wait for it to happen. That's not me. If I don't get out there and make something happen then it's not gonna happen.
A: I know that about you, you're driven. There's a fr*gin lot more there.
A: I think we all have greatness in this world. Different opportunities, not just here.
K: *inaudible, crying*
A: You know what I'm saying, I mean sometimes it only takes that much support. Sometimes one in the hand is better than two in the bush but sometimes it's about the right player. I want so much for you. I'm not gonna be here. If I had a guide book for the whole game it wouldn't matter it wouldn't change your mind.
K: I have to stay here. I'm scared. I'm so sorry.
A: I know.
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