H: I feel stupid. I feel so STUPID.
J: Wait, I have money issues.
H: I know, but you're the one coming up with jokes. It's not me, I'm not a mastermind.
J: My sense of humor has nothing to do with like..
H: You're wild. You're a wild person.. totally wild.
J: You're more wild than I am wild. What are you talking about?
H: No, I'm not the one running around confusing people.. making skits and soap operas. All of the fights and all the little things I did were just me and you. People would ask, and I would tell them.
J: If you would have been real with me from the start..
H: You weren't real with me from the start.
(having a little of a hard time hearing what Holly's saying.. she's seapking softly.)
J: You're gonna be fine.
H: I'm not.
J: Yes, you are. Are you a liar?
H: No!
J: Then you have nothing to worry about.
H: And you know what the worst was? You outside shaking hands with the guys, and I was all alone and scared.. and you're all shaking hands, and I'm thinking is that just a game on me? am I the stupid one here? You know..
<silence>
H: I never maliciously did anything to you. You from the get go made me not trust you. I did nothing to deserve this at all.. nothing.
J: Well, if you would have just worded it differently from the start.
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H: I just went along with you. I'll just do whatever he wants to do because I feel like he's already very made at me.. and I thought, sure, I'll just do whatever he wants.
J: Hindsight's 24 right now.
H: What does that mean?
J: I thought, you know.. we'll say we're just kidding.
H: But why? Because then I had to play along with you, and that's not fair to me. I just gotta stop thinking about.. you know. I have to start thinking more about myself. I'm too much of a person who cares about other people's feelings. I need to care about myself.
J: That's cool.
J: Just give it a day. Just wait to the live show and the HOH competition. It'll give us something different to talk about. The only one that's really hurt here is you and me.. for everyone else we're just something else to talk about.
H: I don't think so.
J: Well.. people have their opinions, you know. That's the way the game goes down. But it's a game, and..
H: I'm totally crushed about this. Totally crushed.
J: There's playing this game and then there's your emotions getting involved, and that's what sucks.. I mean, I was for real, and you told me you were for real, and whatever.
H: I was for real, Jase. I just didn't want to get crazy serious with you.
J: I know, I get that.
<Adria walked in>
J: I was like.. she doesn't like me, she's just doing this thing. Because honestly..
H: I do like you, you're cool.
J: Like when I tried to give you a little peck before we went to sleep, that was just trying to see if you like me. That's all it was. Then I would be like okay, I feel more secure with this. Because in this situation, I was ridiculously...
<Scott walks in. Everyone's getting ready for the live show tonight, so conversation slows.>
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