3:36 p.m. central standard time
OUTSIDE.
NAKOMIS: What's up? You seem kind of out of it today?
KAREN: Yeah, that's a good word. I'm out of it. I'm just pondering the Big Brother 5 Universe.
NAKOMIS: Really?
KAREN: Yeah.
NAKOMIS: I actually feel good. I don't feel bad. It's awesome.
KAREN: No, I don't feel bad either. Like when I came in here, I remember thinking, you know I could just look like the bank teller who gave somebody the wrong change so they could say, I'm not putting her in the house. I didn't want to judge people because someone's feet smells. Like, for example, someone is a hunter, and I loathe it, I'm not going to use personal judgments because they can play an honorable game. When it came to the gaming, I wanted to try to make it an easy way because I get emotionally attached. It seems really cold of me because you know, you burnt me. Sorry. I don't listen to that through the grapevine the whole time. I would try to evaluate on my own. I've seen good and I've seen bad. Why did he have to do this now. Why couldn't he have been like this the whole time. You know what I mean?
NAKOMIS: It's a last-ditch effort. These are people who won't judge you, so be yourself.
KAREN: I don't need to walk around with an arrow. He's still the april chasing acting. No matter how much it irks me, I'm just like, why now. I almost was hoping he would turn in to like a magnified *****. I'm not upset about it in any way because you make your own decisions in here.
NAKOMIS: I mean, you have to be you. When you start being yourself, people start questiong it.
KAREN: I mean, you make your own decisions, and there's no going back.
NAKOMIS: Well, that's how everybody knows him. I mean, .
KAREN: I don't want to turn myself into some freak like braveheart, dignity respect and stuff like that. I want to make sure that I never got lost in here and got .
KAREN:
NAKOMIS: Well, yesterday I started to. I was like damn it I'm up against a hard question, but I was like wait a minute. He's not on my team and it's a game. It's not like I'm killing him. So I'm like whatever.
KAREN: Literally, if I don't judge on that alone, I can't be part -- You know, I can't function.
NAKOMIS: Yeah. Understandable. It's one of those weird things.
KAREN: Yeah. I'm more upset with myself that I wasn't the executor, but I guess it's better this way. I guess it's better than the executor in the game is not a voter.
NAKOMIS: Yeah. It's no biggie.
KAREN: And I can't stand that I trust somebody more than somebody else, and I'm basing it on things that I've seen and things that have happened, but the one that trust more is the one that I don't know very well. I hate that. But the one that I know better has done so many things to make me feel uncomfortable that I'm internally battling.
NAKOMIS: At this point, I'm just like this could happen, that could happen. What the hell.
KAREN: Yeah. I agree.
NAKOMIS: I don't care. If I leave next week, I leave next week. It's a game.
KAREN: Not if I can help it.
NAKOMIS: I don't want to leave, but if I'm not, then I'm not, and I can't worry about who I'm going to make mad and who's going to get their feelings hurt and blah, blah, blah, blah.
KAREN: You know what happens to people who think like that, bye-bye.
NAKOMIS: Yeah. I'm at the point where it's like screw it. I have to put up someone, whatever.
KAREN: I'm not happy with that segment you just said because I want you to be here.
NAKOMIS: Well, I'm not going to worry about well, if I do this to this person then this person could get mad (talking in a baby sad voice) I don't want to piss anybody off and this and that. It's a freaking game.
KAREN: It's a sucky game.
NAKOMIS: In any sport, if you're about to make a point for your team, you don't think oh, the other team isn't going to like me. I won't make this point because the other team won't like me. I'm happy I got this far.
KAREN: I can't stand the thought -- questions -- the true false this and that. I can't stand those competitions. They F me up. I have to win the next one.
KAREN: I have to win the next one. Have to.
NAKOMIS: Yeah.
KAREN: Have to have to have to have to.
NAKOMIS: Have to.
KAREN: Right. I'm going to. If I don't, I deserve what I get.
NAKOMIS: We ain't got no paddles.
KAREN: I have to.
NAKOMIS: Yeah. Fight hard and all, but don't stress yourself over it.
KAREN: The last one, I already have. I'm still freaked out about the last one. I'm mad at myself.
NAKOMIS: You freak yourself out. You put yourself on the spot too much. If you think you have to do this --
KAREN: That's exactly what happens to me.
NAKOMIS: Don't do that. Just be cool. I mean, I was sitting there for like the first three or four questions, *****, diane's out. Answer, answer, answer.
KAREN: You keep your wits about you in those situations. Veto, different. I got lucky on that one.
NAKOMIS: Well, sometimes it's luck like that.
KAREN: That was luck. But she would have had it.
NAKOMIS: But you know, whatever man. Fun game, good people, happy times. Don't stress yourself out. Don't get cocky.
KAREN: But part of -- and I don't want to use the word "team" because of the way it's been used in here, but part of that is being dependable.
NAKOMIS: Yeah, but you can't be dependable in a game show setting where someone who has been doing quick draw from the beginning you know because that was his game. His game, I took it from him. But I mean, once again, it's like being dependable. I didn't want that, but when my team needed me, I went hell.
KAREN: Right. Next time my team needs me.
NAKOMIS: Don't stress about it.
KAREN: I already am. I'm the only one who disses my ownself.
NAKOMIS: Here's the deal: Don't worry about it, literally. If you stress yourself out and you make it life or death, you aren't any good to yourself or anybody else. You're thinking you have to do this instead of what's the answer. That's just what I learned. That's what I did first HOH. I was like, I have to do this, and I sucked. So I don't know. It's just a game. It's fun. No worries.
NAKOMIS: Okay.
KAREN: Okay.
NAKOMIS: Literally, don't stress yourself out because if it doesn't happen the way we want it to happen, it's just a game.
KAREN: But this is a game that can change people's lives -- I take that back. Wrong terminology. If my people love me now, it doesn't matter because we really don't have Fing Sh*t. But what it can do, provide a comfort level where you're not thinking about how am I going to get food, how am I going to pay my bills. In a sick, demented way, it does help. When you can pay your bills, you're going to be happier.
NAKOMIS: It won't buy you happiness, but it will help out.
KAREN: It's not a game where you get a stuffed teddy bear.
NAKOMIS: I don't want someone who dicked their way to the top because that's what people do outside of this game. That's how I've been doing it. I'm not going to piss people off or screw people over. But I've gotten to the point, where it's a game and we're going to have to do that.
KAREN: If you think about it the only people who got rubbed the wrong way were people who were being dicks, and that's why they're mad because they got caught. They didn't get away with it. Even Jase, even that bastard, I just looked at him you did X Y and Z Jase.
NAKOMIS: Yeah, get used to it.
KAREN: I was like, just have a nice week, and then I walked away.
NAKOMIS: Be yourself.
KAREN: And that's what Cowboy is doing, and I have respect for him.
NAKOMIS: I have obscene respect for him.
KAREN: I can still put up with so much of him.
NAKOMIS: To come to me beforehand and to tell me that it's cool. You got to do whatever you got to do and I respect you for standing up to your promises. And I'm thinking why didn't you do this in the first off.
KAREN: Whatever he did got him here, but he wanted to go about it in that way.
NAKOMIS: It's like you know whatever.
KAREN: We're all adults and we pick the way we want to do stuff.
NAKOMIS: I just see it as we all want to be here.
KAREN: At this stage, it's safe to say everybody wants to be here.
NAKOMIS: Yeah, so pretty much next week, try your hardest. If you don't you don't if you do you do, but don't stress yourself out about it.
KAREN: I don't necessarily believe in a higher power but maybe it's one of those things. Maybe I didn't get all of those things all these months because maybe it's time to happen now. Maybe they'll change the rules. When do they stop letting HOH be consecutive?
FEEDS FROZE.
KAREN: I wanted to be the one to give Adria the boot. You kicked Natalie and I kick Adria, it would have been like yes! I didn't lie about anything either I didn't go you know people think you're okay. No, I said, look. This this and this happened, so that's why you're where you are. Once we got through the angry, nasty bullsh*t, it took a long time, it was cool.
NAKOMIS: Be worried if Diane wins and takes Drew off.
KAREN: I don't trust her as far as I can throw her. As a person I do. In the game, I don't. I can't lie to you about it, and say I don't feel that way because I do feel that way.
NAKOMIS: I mean, that's cool. Don't lie. I don't lie.
KAREN: As a person, she's an open book. Unhappy, shows it; mad, shows it; happy, shows it. Fine.
NAKOMIS: I was never -- to me, the cowboy thing was really weird --
KAREN: You didn't ask for that. Surprise.
NAKOMIS: Blood is thicker than water, but that blood is watered down.
KAREN: Diluted, yeah.
NAKOMIS: It's a liability. But seriously, nothing to worry about.
KAREN: That's our worst-case scenario, right?
NAKOMIS: Drew getting it, not worst case, because I think he would put up Diane.
KAREN: If she gets the veto, I go home.
NAKOMIS: All right, so you need the veto. I don't know.
KAREN: I need to be the HOH.
NAKOMIS: HOH, and I get veto.
KAREN: Right. Then you're the jury?
NAKOMIS: Huh?
KAREN: Then you're the voter.
NAKOMIS: Yeah.
KAREN: Best-case scenario, would you vote out Drew or Diane?
NAKOMIS: For final three, well, I do agree with you that Diane will last longer in a physical competition.
KAREN: Like the other day, she just looked at me and said she wasn't going to use the veto and then 10 hours later, there's the veto that she just used. This "I hate Drew," oh, "you know what, I"m sorry, I'm keeping Drew." I would rather see you, me and Drew then you, me and Diane.
NAKOMIS: Yeah.
4:09 Central Standard Time |
