K - i don't know what anythin is in here anymore
A - i think the biggest thing i really see...this is a time in the game to really try to move ahead. it's a time to look at who would be there for you. i'll do my best not to be a smartass ok?
K - go ahead don't worry about being a smartass
A - sometimes i have a hard time gettin gmy words out.
A - i have been totally open with you, except for that little bit of time in the middle
K - laughs - yea but that's a big detail (the twin switching time)
A sharing to K that she trusts and relates to K. A trusts K and doesn't get mind boggled by or threatened by. A appreciates K's comments about it being unfair when Lori was on teh block.
A - that's why i wanted to choose you for the veto
K - i tried to be honest with you from the beginning that i'm too scared to use it
A - you have so much strength in you
K - it's not like i haven't been trying but Drew.... (talking about K never winning anything)
A - it's times like this we do miss Lenny and Larry. it's been hard today especially with everythin going on
K - yea
A - i know how... you got two years up on me..you got 13 i got 11 (years married)
Now they're talking about that and K seeing the number 13 everywhere this week. K's anniversary was when she was in sequester at start of BB5
A - geez. well i could go off on my numbers too but....
K - there's many other ramifications of having this veto (explaining her thoughts) gets so sticky having this damn thing. because i got so close to you and the way i took it emotionally etc etc etc...it was a lot more than gaming with me. it got so complicated. this is so complicated for me. if you were HOlly right now this would not be so hard. There were intimacies I shared that I didn't even share with you (guess it was Nat) and it's very hard for me.
A - it's not about being a friend right now. if i thought for any reason that i ever had a chance in this game, i would put money on you and i don't know why
K - but i know that if Nat was still in the house i woul dhave been the 3rd wheel...the whole house was the 5th wheel
A - Nat's not here. You can't make assumptions. I have kept my tongue about plenty of things in the past. I think i've been fair not to share my feelinsg with you (so it doesn't mess with your secure feelings)
K - and i appreicate it because i'm better off not knowing
A - all i know is what i can do in this game. there's no reason for me to be on the block this week because i don't even have an alliance. Both Nat and I tried to reach out to you for weeks now...for WEEKS
K - things that happened....
A gets strong in tone...are you telling me that you want me to go because of that? (because K feels betrayed by the twin switch)
This causes K to cry and talk about how it freaked her out.
A now trying to explain.
A - the bottom line is I came in this house fighting for myself. (forceful tone and speed of talk from A)
K - no i'm just saying that
A - that's why i'm sittin ghere talking to you
K - who am i to go ahead and (change HOH decisions for noms)
A - maybe i play differently. i wanted people to come to me to use VETO but none of them would do it
K - i heard them do it
A - if you sit on the bus and you never get off who knows where you're gonn a end up
K - i know. i'm also weighing, he made a bold decision, and if i use veto...i'm criticizing his decision
A - but what is Marvin gonna do?
K - it's not about one person
A - let me ask you something. Are you so meshed with Di and Nak that you're afraid because of that?
K - not at all, they're 20 years old
A - there are other players in this game, including myself if i get HOH,
I cannot do anything if i'm not here. you're already a target K.
K - i know that. i told you from the beginning i was too scared to use the veto. we're all targets
A - i wish you'd given me...instead of giving me half a hope....i'd rather be able to help you then sit back and let other people run this game for you
K - in my opinion right now, this whole house is full of people...all the bad eggs and a couple good ones....rambling here
A - you're telling me that neither Dr, Nak or Di would want to see you gone?
losing this...A is working K hard and trying to mislead K into believing she owes A ... very sad convo. K crying and very upset. A very strong and fast in tone and speech
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