After the poker game is over everyone gets up and goes inside, except Diane and Drew.
Cowboy: “We have to get all this up and pull the shades because of the lockdown early in the morning.
Drew and Diane are left outside alone.
Drew: You going in?
Diane: Yeah, aren’t you?
Drew leans down to kiss her.
Diane: Don’t’ kiss me!
Drew: Why?
Diane: I can’t handle it
Drew: Why?
Diane: Cause we’re not in reality.
Drew: So? What do you mean we’re not in reality.
Diane: We’re not in reality.
Drew: So? Why, what do you mean by that?
Diane: Just what I’ve been told.
Drew: What do you mean?
Diane: That it’s fun. To have fun with it because we’re not in reality and that’s the way I need to be.
Drew: What do you mean?
Diane: You know what I’m saying?
Drew: No.
Diane: Yeah, me neither. But people are raining on my parade, so…
Drew: What’s going on?
Diane: Nothing like, like . . . I like you but it’s been brought to my attention that we’re not in reality so I need to come into reality and realize that this isn’t to just be careful because I’m not in reality.
Drew: Why? Why do you say that?
Diane: Because I know I wish I could make more sense to you but I can’t.
Drew: Why not?
Diane: To basically watch my ass, not watch my ass in the nicest way but I really like you but I have to open my eyes and realize that I’m not in reality and things are going to be completely different in the outside word so I need to be careful.
Drew: Why are you saying this now?
Diane: Because it’s been brought to my attention
Cowboy comes out….drew says “we’re just talking.” Diane says: We’re having a talk.
Cowboy: Sh!t!! Cowboy goes back inside.
Drew: It’s talk time. Why?
Diane: I’m just, it’s like, you know.
Drew: Let’s go do the hammock thing.
Diane: Oh, we get to do hammock time?
Diane sighs, drew whistles on the way to the hammock.
Diane: This is where we first sat together when I actually thought, I actually like this kid. Remember those days?
Drew: Guess so. Talk to me.
Diane: I can’t because it’s not like real.
Drew: What do you mean?
Diane: Like I don’t even give a ***** about the game anymore but you know when people are going to personally rain on my parade . . .
Drew: Personally raining on your parade. I don’t know what you mean. You’ve said that twice.
Diane: Like, I mean um.. I know what kind of person I am outside of this house and let me just try to start it with this and see if I can help you better understand. I didn’t come into this game looking for a relationship. I don’t need a relationship to be comfortable with myself. Like, I’ve been independent all of my life and I’m one of those people who does not need to have somebody around me to feel better about myself or feel comfortable. I came into this house to be by myself and still be hardcore but it’s just, you know..you’re in here and wow, that’s great, great for me. So . . . it’s been brought to my attention that we’re not in a real life setting and I can hurt myself in here by wanting to believe that something is real when it probably isn’t and that it’s not going to work so maybe I need to open my eyes and not hurt myself.
Diane laughs.
Drew laughs.
Diane: Does that make any sense?
Drew: I see what you’re saying but I’m trying to figure out if some light shone down on you and just told you this or what? What? I just don’t know.
Diane: No, it’s no light that shined down. It was a verbal thing that was said to me today. So now you’ve got to understand that okay, and this is like, I don’t know if this is like something that maybe people are doing because it doesn’t effect how I play this game. You know, I don’t know what kind of person you are outside of this house like. . . .
Drew: Well I don’t know what kind of person you are outside of this house. I . . .
Diane: Yeah, but I was told . . . I’ve been continuously told that you have to understand that relationships in reality TV do not work. And I love hearing that from people who like you know…whatever….I don’t start relationships and then just expect them to disappear. You know. I don’t know what I’m trying to say. Okay..lt’s like I was not in any way uncomfortable with you or paranoid with you and the thought did not even cross my mind that this might not go absolutely nowhere when this game was over but after I was told today out of nowhere, actually it was kind of like, you know how people walk around this house and out of nowhere they kind of attack you about strategy? Well now I feel like I’ve been personally attacked about me..like I don’t know I can’t explain it to you.
Drew: Why cant’ you explain it?
Diane: Because I don’t know where it came from and I don’t know why it was brought to my attention today. Like, and some people say and see if this makes any sense to you that I come from a very different family . . . that from where you come from and it was also said that you might just be comfortable …wait…let me think about what was said..um…some people., in reality TV….the people in this house are looking for comfort and maybe that maybe I don’t know, are you looking for just comfort, someone to be around because I don’t feel like that but maybe you are, but I don’t know what you’re thinking. I don’t know what’s going on.
Drew: Well this is the honest god’s truth……(cut out a couple of words here) today and I’ll be straight up with you and not beat around the bush
Diane: Ok, then
Lost connection – have a storm going on here.
Diane: Like I almost got bit in the ass but I’m trying to save face but everything I said today was the truth. I didn’t lie to anyone today so I don’t want you to not trust me because you think I like because I don’t lie – it’s just you know…Natalie when she said that in the HOH room she didn’t look at me and say, “don’t tell anybody, please don’t tell anybody I said that.” You know…so
Drew: Right. . . right. . . right absolutely
Diane: So it’s not like I betrayed anybody really. I’m just trying to make myself feel better about something I did really stupid, okay?
Drew: No.
Diane: But I didn’t start it and it probably wouldn’t have come out if the conversation didn’t come about as it was . . .
Drew: I think everything happens for reason so obviously I’ve got to figure out what it means.
Diane smirks..half laughs…
Diane: It just sucks because you know what I sit here and I don’t even know how I want to vote tomorrow and I don’t even want to vote for two sides. It’s like I have to vote between people that I don’t want to choose between. So…like and I told myself I was going to take some time out of today to sit and think about tomorrow but I haven’t and even if I did I still wouldn’t know what to do and I still don’t know what to do sooo if that tells you anything like I’m not dead set in this game. I’m just floating around if that tells you anything.
Drew: Yeah,
Diane: In a sense, in a weird sense. And you’ve been f’king floating under the radar this whole game so you’re fine.
Drew: How have I been floating under the radar?
Diane: It’s a good thing.
Drew: How have I been floating under the radar?
Diane; Cause you’re so quiet and you don’t get into anything. You know what I mean. Everybody likes you. You’ve don’t have any confrontations, except for maybe one with Jase and who gives a ***** anyways because he ain’t here. You see what I’m seeing? I think you’re more in a golden position than I am right now.
Drew: Okay.
Diane: I’m serious.
Drew: Okay.
Diane: Dude, you seem like you’re nervous, like you’re scared and you’re in a better spot than I am. Both the twins love you and they don’t trust me.
Drew: So, you’ve got every single person in this game on your side.
Diane: Why do you say it like you’re pissed about it?
Drew: I’m not pissed. I’m saying that you’ve got …just like you’re telling me that I’m the coolest cat in the world <Diane laughing inappropriately during this, like a nervous psycho laugh>
Diane: You’ve got more support behind you than..you know what? I think that we’ve both got a lot of support. You’ve got to understand that Nakomis or Karen or Will …Will for sure. Will’s the last person for sure who would put you up in the game right now. Nakomis and Karen they both feel the same way. Everybody is after the twins right now so if any of those people are here next week …the twins are getting put up.
Drew: Right…then what about after that? <Drew raises his voice to a girlish tone> Oooh, I’ve got my pinky promise. <He gestures with his hand> Drew’s gone.
Diane: <Diane laughing> No..no you’ve got Cowboy and Marvin and
Drew: Then we go to another week…Drew’s got
Diane: Listen..listen…<Diane laughing> Drew, what have I told you from day one.
Drew: Shut up.
Diane: I’m going to take you as far as I can in this game. Listen, if you will just bare with me I will look you in the eyes and promise on my sister’s life that the twins need to be put up, one needs to be put out. Marvin’s going, Cowboy’s going , the other twin’s going to go and then it’s all on the people left with me and you and we can just go back and forth with HOH. I would never put you up. I would never let anybody put you up and I would fight anyone in this godforsaken world to do otherwise. Nobody is going to put you up.
Drew: Okay.
Diane: Wouldn’t you rather go three to four more weeks in this game than you know…you know what? I’m not telling you what to do. You do what you need to do
Drew: Okay.
Diane: I’m trying to save my own ass here as well.
Drew: Okay, I know.
Diane: And at the same time . . . trying to help you at the same time . . . . for some reason. I don’t even know why since reality relationships don’t work and that you’re not going to give me the time of day outside of this place anyway.
Drew: I guess so. Have you been feeling that the whole time?
Diane: No, just today.
Diane: Jase told you the exact same thing.
Diane: Well Jase told me that too… so what does that mean?
Drew: That’s what I’m saying, people have been saying that the whole f’king time. People have said that the whole time.
Diane: Yeah, but why would people come to me today about it for? I don’t understand what the motive behind it was. You know what I mean. But this was serious, we don’t want you to get hurt type of thing which is kind of hard to say now cause I don’t think they understand. It’s like they said “don’t fall head over heels, you’re going to get hurt, reality relationships don’t work, but it is kind of cool that you guys hang out only at night which leads us to believe that yeah, there could be something there and you do kind of live close to each other and you never know but you’ve got to understand when you get out into the real world that you’re going to have families and friends and all this other ***** and blah, blah, blah, blah and blah.”
Drew: Today is actually the first day I thought that it wouldn’t work out because of what happened today. It made me realize that at some point in this game you’re going to deceive me so like that made me think..okay, what am I doing? That hit hard, honestly it hit me hard because just the game part of it hit me on a personal level so
Diane: Oh my god!!!
Drew: Yeah like I was thinking about it today and if . . .
Diane: Well obviously that’s how you feel right now!!!
Drew: I feel that way right now because you I don’t know, you like..I couldn’t believe that I had Karen come to my room today and then I had will and like
Lost connection with REAL PLAYER!
Diane: I’m afraid of confrontation, like actually when people confront me I may look like a hardcore bitch but I’m not. You know when Jase attacked me that night in the kitchen what did I do? I walked outside and cried and smoked two cigarettes. Yeah, people think I’m a hard ass but I’m not so why would I want to immediately run to you when I know that I did something wrong. I wanted to give it time and maybe settle in before I bring it up because I would have just pissed away my whole day and got upset when it came up. <Diane sighs>
I don’t know what I’m talking about anymore. <Diane laughs>
Drew: Don’t worry about it.
Diane: How can I not??? See, I’m done because I just f’ked everything up between us because I care about other people in this house besides you. Way to go Diane. Score one point for the home team. <While she says this she is smiling and reaches for his hand> Diane: I’m sorry.
Drew: Don’t . . . you don’t have to say anything else. Don’t worry about it.
Diane: You’ve got to understand that I’m learning things about you in the process
Drew: I know that.
Diane: You want me to come and talk to you and make sure everything is okay…well now I know. I’m not saying I’m going to do anything to hurt you.
Drew: I know …it’s just I think we’ve said everything and this conversation isn’t going anywhere.
Diane: It is going in circles.
Drew: So I don’t think we need to say anything else.
Silence
Diane: See if you were just more open it might be a lot easier for me to read you but you’re more bottled up than I am. I can’t read you. I can’t see through you and I can’t get into your brain . . .
Drew: Right…
Diane: I can’t understand what you’re thinking. I’m crazy about you and everybody in this house can tell me otherwise and to go ahead and don’t do it, don’t jump in there, don’t fall head over heels but I think it’s too late and you know what? It’s kind of like this game. I’m willing to take risks and I’ve had my heart broken before . if it gets broken again, guess what? I’ll live. I mean obviously I won’t die from it and I’ll move on in my life. So…that’s where I stand on that viewpoint. <Odd she didn’t think of this when she told him he couldn’t kiss her but now that he’s agreeing she’s backtracking>
Drew: Right
Diane: Just so you know.
Drew: Okay
Diane: See…I’m sorry I’m not as beautiful as Lori and all but…take what you can get.
Drew: Shut up..gosh.
<Diane laughs>
She laughs
Drew: I’ll say that’s something that gets to your ass.
Diane: You know I’m just saying how I feel because I can let it out. To me it’s not a problem opening my mouth and saying how I feel.
Silence…..
Diane: I’m sleeping on the couch tonight? <Laughs>
Drew: I don’t know. I might be
Diane: Seriously?
Drew: I might!
Diane: Why would you do that?
Drew: I’ve just got a lot of things to think about
Diane: And sleeping next to me is going to affect you?
Drew: Yep.
Diane: <Laughs> See…get scared and run…like most people I’m used to….RUN from your problems.
Drew: I’m not running from a problem, alright?
Diane: Well.
Drew: I’m not running away.
Diane: See, I can’t read you at all. I can’t do it. You emotional stress me out. I’m not trying anymore.
<Drew laughs>
Diane: You’re not even funny. I get so tired of opening my heart to people and
Real player disconnects.
Diane: I’d rather set my self up for disappointment and have something great surprise me than to have something happen and you break my heart and not see it coming even though I don’t think you’re that kind of person. You know, what I’m saying is that I want to be prepared for the worse if that’s what’s to happen. Does that make any sense?
Drew: I see what you’re saying.
Diane: I’m sorry…sorry..now I know. If I upset you now I know that I will come to you and talk to you immediately. You just have the world’s biggest heart. I think that’s what it is.
Drew: The world’s biggest heart?
Diane: Yeah and I think that’s awesome you know.
Drew: Yeah. . . so
Diane: I’m so0rry I didn’t see it and I’m sorry you cared and I didn’t know about certain things like that.
Drew: I’m just scared with you because. . . .
<Diane interrupts after she said she wanted him to open up>
Diane: I’m scared too…you know I’m not the brightest star in the sky.
Drew: Because of this game…I’m scared.
Diane: What about it?
Drew: Cause I feel like . . .
Diane: Speak!! You have such a hard time getting your FRIGGIN words out! Why can’t you just let them roll off your tongue and whatever comes out comes out?
Drew: Because I’m not like you. I actually think before I talk.
Diane: I know. <laughing> I wish I was like that. <laughing> I’m not though. Sometimes it’s a good thing though and sometimes it’s a bad thing because you get immediately reactions. Sometimes I don’t like it when people think about what they’re saying because then I don’t think it comes from their heart….you know? Hm?
Drew: Whoa.
Diane: Speak to me.
Drew: Alright girl. I’m scared because I feel like at some point in this game . .
Diane: I’m going to f**k you over.
Drew: So like that’s going to make me mad.
Diane: I’m not going to.
Drew: Yes you are!
Diane: No, no, no, I want you to be standing next me when all of this is over.
Drew: I’m saying you’re going to f**k me over.
Diane: Why would you say that? Why would you say I’m going to f**k you over? Why? Why would I do that?
Drew: Because -you will. Because you will <emphasis in tone of voice on the “you will”>
Diane: Why? Why would I do that to us over a game?
Drew: Because I don’t have $500,000 in the bank.
Diane: Neither do I. Well, okay. I would be happy with second place.. I would be happy. Second place will get me out to start my dreams…whether you’re next to me or not. You know…like you could take $500,000 and go to law school and say see you later. Second place would get me out to LA so I could attempt to follow some kind of dream that I have.
Drew: Right.
Diane: If I don’t leave this game with nothing but a stipend I don’t know if I’m going to be able to do anything with my life except for the same miserable ***** that I’ve been doing. You know what I mean. I don’t have big high hopes and dreams right now.
Drew: Why not? You need to.
Diane: Cause I feel like money…I feel like I can’t go nowhere without any money.
Drew: If there’s one think I could have an affect on you it’s I wish I could get you to understand the importance of going to college.
Diane: Yeah, I have one year left.
Drew” You need to get on with it girl.
Diane: Why?
Drew: Because look how much more you’d learn and knowledge is power, okay? In this world you have to have a college degree.
Diane: Drew…I skate by my classes.
Drew: So what…SO WHAT? <raising hands> A degree is like a ticket for jobs. You have to have it.
Diane: Everything I want to do in my life doesn’t require a college education. Do you understand that?
Drew: What do you want to do?
Diane: I want to be an actress. I want to do more serious modeling. I want to do something that I can’t accomplish right now because ….
Drew: What if that all falls through?
Diane: Then I think I have four years in college…I’m sure someone will hire me and then I can go back to school then!!!
Drew: You need to get it done. I’m just saying that’s my opinion.
Diane: Alright, then what does that have to do with anything?
Drew: I’m just saying, it’s something I’ve been meaning to say to you.
Diane: Alright. I just might go back to school
Drew: I’m just giving you advice here…this is life advice, okay? Is there a problem with me giving you life advice?
Diane: No, I hate school.
Drew: I know, you do but you’ve only got one year left man…so
Diane: Because I hate school that much.
Drew: You’ve got one year left
Diane; I know and I hated all four years that I went through school. I hate school. I f’king hate school. I have classes left that I have to take that I don’t want to because I’m shy. I have advanced public speaking. I don’t want to go back to school because I don’t like talking in front of people and I don’t want to go back to that class.
Drew” Yeah, you’ve really got a problem with that. You’re on national TV and have a problem talking.
Diane: I can’t talk in front of 15 people in my class but I can go on national TV and spill my guts to you and everyone else in this GD house.
Drew: Yeah, I can see that.
Diane: I don’t either. I have to take a training and development class and my final for that class is a 20 minute oral presentation and I don’t to go back for that reason. I have to take two marketing classes done. I have to take math…liberal arts. It took me three times to get through math 099 and that’s not even a college level math.
Drew: Then just get it done!!!
Diane: I can’t concentrate, I can’t study. I have ADD. I’ve tried to go to a counselor and talk to somebody about it but they’re more or less told me that I was retarded and sent me right out the door. I went to talk to somebody about test anxiety because I’m really smart and I’m really intelligent but I can’t take tests. I can get A’s on everything in class but I get straight F’s across the board in flying colors for any kind of oral presentation.
Drew: I’m sure they didn’t tell you that. You’re lazy and don’t want to study.
Diane: You see I work too much and I’m going to be honest here. I am poor. It’s been a long time since my family has had any money. My father had a real good job at one time. They did their best to provide for us. My car died and I had to get a new car and yes I had to get something that looks good because I decided that if I’m going to buy a car on my own I’m going to get something that I want. I make more money than half the adults by working at the boat. I go to school for 9 hours, I go to work for 10 hours…I don’t have time to study. I can’t go to school because I can’t afford to pay for my car, pay for my apartment, go to school, pay for my books. I can’t afford to study because I have to work to live.
<Loans are discussed. She says she got a loan for $4000,00 for her fourth year….only for school. She still had to buy her books>
Diane: I can’t live and go to school at the same time. It’s like I have to choose to do one or the other. What do you want me to do? Move in with my psycho dad? Move in with my psycho mom? I can’t study. I have ADD and I can’t study and I’m lazy.
Drew: Get some medicine., I have someone that I know who has ADD and he or she took medicine for it.
Diane: What is ADD? <Asking this after she says she has it>
Drew: It’s like a thing where you can’t concentrate on stuff.
Diane: But I do well in some classes and no others. I think college is just too hard for me.
Drew: I don’t think so.
Diane: I think it is.
Drew: I see more in you and you can get through college.
Diane: Obviously not. I’m not smart. I aint’ real smart.
Drew: You did something real smart today.
Diane: And almost lost you. . . so that’s real smart <sarcastic sounding>
Drew: I’m a different kind of guy so it’s not your fault that I reacted the way that I did. Okay? I’m me. You’ve never been around me in these kind of situations and you don’t know me. I’m the kind of person who is totally open with how I feel. I’m not as open as you are with, if I get pissed off. I kind of took it personally and I got pissed off.
Diane: No, I had no clue.
Drew” And I’m a f’king Taurus who doesn’t like to admit that he’s mad…yeah..I’m totally like that. I don’t like to admit that kind of stuff and I think one think I need to work on is letting people know what I’m feeling when I feel it, especially in relationships. I’m beginning to realize that I’m not the best person at that and I need to work on it more, at least from what I’ve experienced with you, so that’s the way it is. So…you live and you learn. This is just a weird environment for this type of *****.
Diane: That’s what scares me.
Drew: Like today, I don’t know I felt betrayed by you and it was hard for me to decipher between personal and game. I’m trying…
Diane: Yeah, but it hurts to hear you say that for like the 20th time.
Drew: Okay
Real player disconnects again.
When I get back they’re playing, teasing, laughing, at least Diane is in the backyard.
Diane: Please sleep with me…we’ll face opposite directions and we’ll place a big comforter between us as a barrier and you’ll have all the privacy that you need.
No comment from drew.
Diane: What did I do now? What? What?
Drew: So you want to do that? Sleep like that?
Diane: I want to talk to your brother. Drew’s crazy! tell me about him. Don’t do it Diane…don’t go after my crazy ass brother. Or maybe I should go after Ben. He maybe the normal one.
<Drew is playing golf. Diane won’t leave him alone….touching, coming up behind him…then she’s singing> ~anything you want, I’ve got it.~
Diane: You suck.
Drew: We need a basketball court here.
Diane: I bet you suck at that too. I used to fast pitch in soft ball.
Let’s play the dead game.
Drew: How?
<Diane falls to the ground> Just play dead.
<Drew falls down too>
Diane: I appreciate the fact that you can be an idiot with me. <she’s uncontrollably laughing….nervously>
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